So it's the beginning of September....my birthday is this month! Before, I would look forward to September, happy to have made it through yet another year! But last year that all changed. Mack and I were pregnant and Hunter was due September 30, 2008. We went in on Thursday, September 25, for our last weekly doctors visit. I had been having contractions all morning and thought "This is it....Hunter is finally going to be here!!!" (To go back a little further in the past, Mack and I had gotten pregnant once before in 2007 and had a miscarriage at 12 weeks.) We had reached full term with Hunter we "just knew" everything was going to be ok and he was going to be here soon! We went in to meet with Dr. Adams and she went through all her poking and prodding and everything she had to do to find that I was dilated at a 1 and we were ecstatic. Then the bad news! She couldn't hear Hunter's heartbeat and wanted to do a sonogram to make sure everything was ok. We went into the office, I layed on the table, and she began searching. Then there was The Look. The look on Dr. Adams' face said it all as her jaw dropped and her eyes began to water. I knew right then and there Hunter had left us to be with our Lord and Savior. We couldn't understand what had gone wrong?! Why us....why this again?! What have I done in my life that was so bad to have lost my son? Why why why why......SO many questions that no one could answer! I delivered Hunter at 10:10pm Thursday, September 25, 2008. He was 5 lbs. 9 ounces and was 20 1/2 inches long and the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my entire life! After everything was said and done Mack and I went to my parents house for a few days, where I "celebrated" my 24th birthday on September 28, and then had to bury my son on September 30, 2008. September has so many memories for my family and me now. It is a time for happiness and a time for sadness. I know that Hunter is in a much better place....better than what Mack and I could have EVER provided for him. But we miss him so much. I know he is in Heaven with so many other family members and friends looking down on us and keeping us safe. That is why Mack and I are Guardians of Angels. Because even though we weren't as far along with our first pregnancy, it was still something special.
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